walking on eggshells
November 14, 2006 at 2:04 am 4 comments
here i am a million miles away from Lebanon yet feeling closer to home each day. all my thoughts are consumed by the future… what’s to come of my little country in the days to come?
i’ve been feeling numb the past few days. wondering and hating the fact that’s all i can do. hearing the news breaks my heart and my family masks their fears in vague consolations like “we’re living day by day” or “things seem to be back to normal”… but something is bubbling under the surface and i hate the fact that i’m so far away to find out what it is.
it’s times like this of uneasy waiting that one really thinks, in an age of so much advancement, how is it that the people are left waiting? the scariest part of all is there are no boundaries to the ugly possibilities… anything and everything can happen. what’s happened to the greater good of the country? have we sunk so low that no one can cooperate for something better? is ideology more important than life? than a future?
i don’t want to be standing by helplessly yet this is what we have been shaped to do. endless frustrations and no results: we have become numb. we are the helpless sheep of a country that’s being run by corruption. inevitable self-destruction. please don’t tell me to rally. please don’t tell me to donate. please don’t tell me it’s people like me who can make a difference. please, oh, please don’t call me a hypocrite for leaving.
what is going on in the world is beyond any of us.
(i’m sorry for all the negativity in this post but i felt a need to express my concerns)
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One for sorrow | November 14, 2006 at 6:22 am
Lorrettaaa…u have no need to apologize, i for one agree with u 100%! Let’s just pray that this fire under the pot gets put out real soon, so we can all go home.
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Fudge | November 14, 2006 at 8:31 am
I won’t bother commenting on what u said cuz I totally agree with u luv. But take it from me, here in Lebanon, and usually sharp on what’s gonna happen, I dont think there’s gonna be much trouble for the time being. Ease up your worries conchi
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the mediator | November 14, 2006 at 3:15 pm
me too bobbet…i had all these silent thoughts in my head “it’s ok if i don’t get a job..i’ll get to go back to beirut” but these couple of days i’ve changed my mind. it hurts to say this but beirut has become like the see-saw carrying illegible weights and it seems will never be in balance….and ramzi even if nothing happens, the talk is enough..it’s not fair…when will they leave the playground??
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Ralph | November 17, 2006 at 4:14 am
When God created Lebanon he said: “I’m gonna give it the most beautiful sea in the world, the most beautiful mountains in the world…”
“I’m gonna make its people one of the most enjoyable ever… party animals, generous, loving…”
“I’m gonna make their lives easy… give a car to each and every one of them… make them drink as much as they want for practically nothing… let them have two houses each…”
Then, God’s counsel (dunno who that would be, maybe St Peter, and Mar Charbel and Mahomet and Buddha) said: “But that’s unfair, why should this country have everyting while others are quite unfortunate!!!”
Then God said: “Wait a minute, I haven’t created their neighbours yet…”