Lorena's Epiphany

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November 30, 2009 at 10:40 am Leave a comment

I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke. I will not smoke.

My hand’s already tired (not copy-pasting). Guess this is sort of working. I commemorated my last pack on November 11th, but deep down lied to myself and those in witness. I haven’t bought a pack since, which is a good first step..

I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit. I want to quit.

I realized a few days ago that the reason I can’t seem to stop is the temptation all around. I wish they would implement more non-smoking regulations around Lebanon. Another crazy idea I got was that if I got the close friends who smoke around me to stop, I could stop. Then again, you can’t really change anyone’s behavior unless they’re ready to.. so it’s gonna come down to my own fierce will-power to mentally and physically reject it.

This actually took my mind off of buying a pack.

One point, me. Zero point, cigarettes.

Entry filed under: Floating. Tags: addiction, cigarettes, quiting.