Something, Out of Nothingness
March 21, 2010 at 10:26 pm 5 comments
It’s only in really allowing ourselves to feel nothing, that we inadvertedly allow ourselves to feel something. Just as a clear canvas allows an artist to envision their masterpiece, a clear heart allows a romantic to get ready to fall in love again.
I don’t know if it’s because I’m inching closer towards the end of my sabbatical or what, but new doors have opened. Suddenly, I’m meeting guys I can actually see myself with, and guys who actually respect the sabbatical. Rather than get turned off, it’s having the reverse effect – which was not the intention! Maybe it gives them a trust in me than they don’t find in other girls, or maybe they simply enjoy the challenge of trying to break me out of the sabbatical. I don’t know!
Men are alot more patient than I had come to believe. They enjoy the getting-to-know each other part too, and so far, they have had no problem opening up on various topics. Having no dating agenda (at the moment) allows me to be completely blunt and myself. It tremendously helps understand a guy’s intentions up-front too. The connection is there and evolves naturally with each interaction. It’s refreshing. Sometimes one interaction is enough to dismiss any possibility, sometimes I’m left wanting more.
After all, not all men are players and some are on their own journey of finding the right girl. Or it could just be that as they get older, men come to realize they are ready to be with just one girl. They’ve finally had enough experience to be satied. Marriage is not currently on my horizon, but I’d like to know if I meet someone, the future possibility is there. I’m tired of having to U-Turn after a misleading Dead End.
I’m going through a confusing phase in my dating sabbatical, but very much enjoying how things are developing. No games. No lies. Just one person getting to know another. Who knows what’ll happen in a few weeks, but I’m optimistic that I’m getting closer to finding the real thing..
Entry filed under: From the Heart. Tags: confusing, dating sabbatical, emptiness, falling in love, getting to know, reflections, relationships, something.
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mirellamccracken | March 22, 2010 at 1:17 am
I used to date a different guy every 6 months… I had my share of heartbreaks… but before meeting my husband I was on a 2 years dating sabbatical… I thought I was becoming a lesbian…but then he came, and he was the right one.
Good luck sweetie!
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curious george | March 22, 2010 at 6:13 am
‘Suddenly, I’m meeting guys I can actually see myself with, and guys who actually respect the sabbatical.’
Is there a looong line of guys? do we have to take a number like in some banks?
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Lorena | March 22, 2010 at 11:45 am
Thanks Mirella
a 2-year sabbatical doesn’t sound so bad if it led to finding the right one.. congrats sweetie! 
Curious George: I didn’t mean it that way!
It’s always good to have options, no?
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Samira | March 23, 2010 at 12:02 pm
I can’t stop smiling while reading this!
After coming back from Doha, I took one year dating sabbatical, and it was a very good way to nourish my ego (in a good way).
You never know what the days will be hiding for you, but I can tell that great things will surely come your way!
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Lorena | March 23, 2010 at 7:40 pm
thanks samsam
so far, so good and not in a rush to get into serious unless it’s worth it. a few more weeks to go till the end of the official sabbatical, but who know how much longer it will get to find the real thing? we’ll see 